As the smoke clears, this is really happening!

Whew....Man has it been rough these past few weeks. We have been working on the house working to get our home study completed, and to top it all off my wife went blind. I know some of you are thinking what??? Well she had a bad reaction to some medication she was taking for migraines and it literally cause her to lose her sight. This all happened a week and a half before we were due to leave for Ghana. I'm not gonna lie, this really shook me. Obviously I was worried for my wife's well being, but It really shook my faith. She has been so good in leading the way through this adoption process and now what do I do? The one that I was trusting to really hear and see God through this process cant see! I immediately began to play the what if game. How can we continue through this with one of us blind. I struggled to imagine how I would take care of three kids and her. What will we do financially if she cant go back to work? What if, what if, what if? Well what if Id just quit being a bone head and trust in the Lord. Not my wife, not my self, but whole heartily in Him! Well I got to see just how deeply my wife had buried herself in His arms through yet another trial. She is almost completely blind telling me, we are going. He will take care of this yet again. I'm just amazed at her faith. I really am praying that I could rise to her level. The Lord taught me another lesson through watching my wife as well. I got to see perseverance right up close. When at times I'm playing the what if game, she is not allowing anything to come between us and our baby! I'm so proud to be married to such a strong woman! I can be real stubborn sometimes, I know surprise surprise. As I write this I am sitting in an airport in New York waiting on a plane to take me to Ghana for the very first time. I would not be here if it weren't for the wonderful example that my wife has set for me. Through the good and the bad she has stayed steady pushing forward to the blessing that the Lord has waiting for our family.